I Had to Sacrifice Someone I love for Something I’m Passionate About. Are You Willing to Pay the Price?


At the FMC show on November 5th I watched as 7 of my athletes took the stage.

I was blessed to witness team #AEnation come home with three 1st place trophies, three 2nd place trophies, two 3rd place trophies and the Best Male Athlete Overall winner.

November 5th was an emotional day for me because technically I’m not even supposed to be here. I made plans to move to Australia and the entirety of last year was spent believing that I was going to live on the other side of the world.

Around November 2015 though I began to feel disconnected from my intentions of leaving Calgary. I knew that if I moved to the other side of the world, that I wouldn’t be able to build this business., and this business is my life’s work.

I am passionate about Aesthetic Nation. I’ve spent 3 years thinking about it, 2 years on it part time, and I’ve been going hard at it for the last year. This is my passion because it’s all encompassing.

Through #AEnation I can write, which I’ve always loved.

I can compete and chase my dreams of being a dominant competitor, which allows me to lead by example.

I can create food projects with amazing chefs, which fuels my love of food.

But finally, and most importantly, I can inspire other people to live as stronger versions of themselves.



Imagine this.

You want to have a luscious garden so you begin planting seeds.

In order for your garden to grow, it needs to get adequate sunlight, be tended to daily, and it needs to be watered.

As your garden grows you must let go and trust the universe, knowing that the law of growth is on your side, and you can’t rush the growth of the garden.

It’s going to grow at the rate that it’s ready to.

All you can do is water the garden to the best of your ability, take care of it as much as you can, and through intentional care your garden grows.

Aesthetic Nation is my garden, and the sunlight is my work ethic. The water is time, and the more time that passes, with the proper sunlight, and intentional care, Aesthetic Nation has grown.

Moving to Australia would have meant that I spent 2 years watering my garden and then all at once, before my plants were ready to leave the ground, uprooting them and taking them with me to that fancy new house I just bought down the street.



So based on this information, I have to stay in Canada to tend to my garden, or it will die.

There’s just one problem.

It’s November 2015 and I’ve been planning to leave for the last 6 months.

And person that I’m in love with is moving to the other side of the world with or without me.

And I have to tell her that I do not want to leave because I believe in my vision, and if I leave, everything I will have worked for will have been for nothing.

I’m not ready to leave Canada and I’m DEFINITELY not ready to leave Aesthetic Nation.

I have to stay.

?This is where I belong.”


This year was one of the hardest years of my life.

I went from a whirlwind romance to losing it all in one conversation.

A single conversation changed everything and there was no going back from it.

I spent the first quarter of the year regretting my decision. “Maybe I should just go to Australia, I’m so lonely, I missed out, I lost love and I’ll never find it again,” you know, all of the self-defeating thoughts that seem to permeate our mind after a breakup.

I kept grinding, though, and kept watering my garden.

Every day I’d find a way to take one more step forward with the business no matter how bad I felt.

Every day, I mean every single day, the vision took priority.

I want to inspire people to live happier, healthier, stronger lives.

I want to lead by example and show the value of moderation over choosing any of the two extremes being 100% party or never go out for a drink.

I want to develop a tribe of people who inspire each other and lift each other up.

I want to have a team of winning athletes for #AEnation.

I want to show that even though I train to win, sometimes I lose, and when I do I always learn, and I always get back up, and I’ll NEVER be stopped.

I want this brand to be bigger than just me, I want to build it with my whole team, my team of trainers, of athletes, of clients who are absolutely committed to self-improvement and bringing the people around them up to a higher level.


November 5th 2016 at FMC was an emotional day for me.

Watching my athletes take the stage and own it with the confidence that they did brought my decision to stay in Canada full circle with me.

This is what I’m meant to be doing with my life.

I’ve found my purpose.

I’ve found my calling.

And I’m never, ever, ever, ever going to stop.

I’ve lost friends, lost touch with people I spent a long time getting to know, and I’ve lost love in the process of finding my calling, but this is it,

?I’ve found my calling.

I’ve had to leave behind friends as I’ve embarked on this journey to be the best version of myself.

Not because they are bad people, but because I am a different person, and in order to become the best version of myself, I had to be in a different environment, surrounded by people who see things the way I do and are committed to doing whatever it takes to reach their goals.

And you’re going to have to do the same, if you want to evolve into something that you’ve dreamed about but never chased.

Everything that you want is outside of your comfort zone otherwise you’d already have it.

Your ideal career, your ideal relationship, your passion, all of these things are out of reach because you’re unwilling to put yourself in awkward / uncomfortable / scary / uncertain situations that may break your heart.

The truth is that none of this would have happened if I had left for Australia.

None of my athletes would have stepped on stage at the FMC show and dominated,  Jessi, Josie and Tahj wouldn’t be working with me to create this dream, I wouldn’t have the amazing closely knit circle of Taylor, Tara and Jessi and I wouldn’t have a team of inspiring people to lift me up and encourage me to continue doing what I’m doing.

So today I’m grateful.

I’m grateful that I’m here.

I’m grateful that I was able to heal and find peace through using the energy to train for my Toronto show.

I’m grateful for Jessica Yule for putting up with my terrible jokes and helping me build this thing.

I’m grateful for Tara Suave for loving me unconditionally throughout this entire year.

?I’m grateful for Tahj and Josie being as fired up as they are to create freedom for themselves and inspire people to be healthier versions of themselves.

And I’m grateful for each and every person that entrusts me with their health and fitness goals and I can promise you this … I am NEVER GOING TO STOP.

I will do this until the day that I die.

So thank you, and here’s to another year of crushing it. <3

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